The Strongest Man in the World Gets Vulnerable

Heather Eastman

Heather Eastman

A native of Santa Cruz, California, Heather happened upon a life-changing opportunity while earning her bachelor's degree from UCLA. Though her course work prepared her for a life in the medical field, Heather left it behind to pursue her love of exercise and fitness, earning certifications from the National Strength and Conditioning Association and the American Council on Exercise. She finished her degree while working for the university at the renowned John Wooden Center as a personal trainer and group exercise instructor.

In her 12 years' experience training clients and teaching classes, Heather went on to work with health and fitness professionals from around the country and mastered everything from competitive bodybuilding to CrossFit to aerial silks. She enjoys art and travel, having already visited 28 countries on 5 continents, and when she's not exploring the world or attempting new challenges she loves to be home where she can cook healthy meals, spend time with her pets, and watch movies.

The Strongest Man in the World Gets Vulnerable

Anthony Fuhrman is a two-time world strongest man and a Titan Games competitor. He now runs international competitions for the 105-kilogram class, promoting international contests featured on ESPN. 

Here is his story as told to Bodybuilding.com.

I was in the Army—15 years infantry, deployed a bunch of times—and I can say I never sought treatment, I never had to seek treatment, I thought it was fine. 

I realized that there was something wrong when I was not taking joy in the things I once took joy in. I thought it was because I had some injuries, which is common in athletes. Something athletes never really talk about is the deep, deep depressive episodes you can get into while being hurt. Usually, you come out of it when your injuries are healed up. But I wasn't physically injured.

I started self-medicating a little bit with alcohol because it relaxed me enough where I could kind of be myself again. The problem is once you're not drinking, you start drinking again because you want to get back to feeling good. Luckily, I snapped out of that fairly quickly.

I started going to therapy and they diagnosed me with anxiety disorder and depression.

Once I finally went in and accepted help, it was like somebody had been sitting on my chest for a year and I finally got them off me. I could breathe again. I felt better. That's when I decided to start speaking out publicly. 

The Pressures of Toughness

I think athletes are way more susceptible to mental health issues. I think they're almost on the same level as soldiers and marines because it's so much pressure mentally and physically. Athletes are operating red line all the time, and it doesn't just take a toll on your body. They are pushing through injuries and then beating themselves up when they sit and dwell on failures.

If you're injured physically, it prevents you from performing at a hundred percent. If you're injured mentally, it does the same thing. You could be healthy physically all you want, but if you're not healthy mentally, you can't perform a hundred percent.

With sports and athletes, I think the more vulnerable people in positions of authority are, the more it's going to normalize talking about it. That's when change happens.

Vulnerability is Not a Weakness

I have done some of the hardest physical and mental tasks. I have walked 30 miles in the desert, gotten to firefights, pulled buddies out—I've done it all. I've also lifted weights that less than 1 percent of the world can lift. 

The hardest thing I've ever done was talk about my feelings to a counselor. That was probably also the manliest thing I've ever done, because without being vulnerable, you can't improve. 

It's not easy. No one likes being vulnerable—not one single person who's ever walked this earth. I would say that having done every tough physical and mental task on earth, pouring myself out and being vulnerable—that's the only thing you can do.

Protect Yourself by Opening Up

Our first instinct is always to protect ourselves. We protect ourselves physically, but we do not protect ourselves mentally. Depression and anxiety are threats we pretend are not there because of the stigma. Admitting something's going on—that's way stronger than any deadlift I've ever done.

After taking that step and being vulnerable, putting myself out there, I would say that it has greatly increased my empathy to others. It's almost a compulsion to help others. 

If I could snap my fingers, I would want everybody in the military and in strength sports to go find a stranger and tell them something they don't want to tell anybody. I think that would lead to a lot of good stuff. Stop pretending you're perfect. It's OK, nobody is perfect. Imperfection is perfection. It's life.


To learn more about how Fuhrman and other athletes are changing the mental health conversation, visit bodybuilding.com

Heather Eastman

Heather Eastman

A native of Santa Cruz, California, Heather happened upon a life-changing opportunity while earning her bachelor's degree from UCLA. Though her course work prepared her for a life in the medical field, Heather left it behind to pursue her love of exercise and fitness, earning certifications from the National Strength and Conditioning Association and the American Council on Exercise. She finished her degree while working for the university at the renowned John Wooden Center as a personal trainer and group exercise instructor.

In her 12 years' experience training clients and teaching classes, Heather went on to work with health and fitness professionals from around the country and mastered everything from competitive bodybuilding to CrossFit to aerial silks. She enjoys art and travel, having already visited 28 countries on 5 continents, and when she's not exploring the world or attempting new challenges she loves to be home where she can cook healthy meals, spend time with her pets, and watch movies.

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