My name is Jordan Moore (more commonly known as J-Mo) and I am a father, writer, music & drawing artist, and film director from Indianapolis, IN. In 2022, I was promoted to President of Creative Direction at the company Gringo Gang Records LLC, an acclaimed music label out of the Midwest who most recently completed 3 touring cycles and a music label distribution deal with Sony Orchard. Most importantly, I also released my first critically acclaimed solo album & hardcover book project "Finished" that spawned the fan favorite song "Who I Really Am".
This song is dedicated and directed to those who suffer from the condition commonly known as anxiety. This condition was something that I had never considered or had much knowledge about but knew that I was being affected. As someone suffering from anxiety, I have found art as my outlet to express my feelings and combat my condition.
The song "Who I Really Am" is a culmination of my experience with death, friendship, and artistic spirit. In my own words I describe the life situation that caused me to reflect on my anxiety and deal with it in a positive manner. I am a strong supporter of bringing awareness to anxiety and its effects on people, specifically the youth. This is one of the main reasons I reached out to ADAA to get my story out because of the research I have done on their help in the community and their determination to help others in my condition. Hear my story firsthand as I talk about the "reason for the season" in creating the song.
"I began writing the song 45 minutes after I found out that a friend we called "Sev" had passed away. I was crying in tears. I found that I felt horrible for my friend and his best friend Dale most of all. I couldn’t stop thinking about how much pain one of my brothers was feeling losing person after person (This was the 2nd death in as many weeks). Though I may not have known "Sev" particularly well as we did not grow up together, I had heard about him for 5 years before he ever came home from prison! I felt like I had known him my whole life the way Dale talked about him. When I got the chance to finally meet him, he acted as if HE KNEW ME his whole life!
I just felt terrible for Dale and I felt absolutely heartbroken for him because I know how close they were throughout life. I was getting myself very worked up and tears were flowing as I kept telling myself “Jordan you need to calm down”. I was legit freaking out over it (no one knows this by the way). I came across this beat and I matched my thought “Need a calm down” to the melody and that's when the song began. Knowing "Sev" committed suicide, I wrote the lyrics:
“I need to calm down, Anxiety tryna kill me, I just hide the pain as if my brothers won't feel it, and if I die … then you know I'll regret it, reach into my faith and hope he sends me to heaven."
Love,
Jordan Moore
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